Being an adult is hard: lesson #1
Lesson #1: Heels + Me = lots of pain.
I wore heels to the career fair. They’re nude, pointed-toe heels with a scallop detail and make me look “aggressive” (per the SO) and sophisticated. Perfectly complimented my grey blazer and sea green Ann Taylor shift dress.
Walked around the fair for about an hour and a half. And now I have blisters on the pads of my feet. The one on my left foot is the size of a quarter. I walked barefoot to my car and my feet just ached. Came home, washed and bandaged my feet up, took a nap and my feet still ache. I can’t flex them, and I’m not too sure that I’m going to make it to yoga tomorrow. Hell, I’ll be lucky if I can survive my walking class.
Hey, at least I looked good, right?
Lesson learned: invest in a good pair of flats.
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I had to go to Wal-Mart to buy batteries for my digital recorder for class tomorrow. It’s 9:30pm, dark and rainy. I’m home alone and I have half my things on my weekend to-do list left to do. It’s so frustrating that I forgot to pick up the batteries at home and now I have to drive out to go get them, but hey, I gotta do it.
I called him and told him my predicament. “It’s so dark and it’s getting late, and I haven’t even studied for my test yet,” I complained.
"You know what you should do? You should treat yourself," he said. And of course he knows my guilty pleasures — because in my deeply rooted desire to be healthy and lean and skinny, I will always want what I know I shouldn’t have — "Is there a Taco Bell nearby?"
"No, there isn’t. There’s a Sonic across the street."
"You should get a milkshake." We spend about fifteen minutes arguing back and forth as I wander the store, trying to find the damn batteries. My argument ("I’m going to get fat!") against his ("One milkshake is not going to get you fat.") is weak, superficial and stupid. I give in, jogging to the car in the rain, already regretting the purchase I haven’t made.
"I’m going for a run later," I said, pulling into the drive-thru.
"No, it’s raining now. I mean tomorrow."
"Just stop, and enjoy it. You’ve worked really hard this week."
"No, not as hard as last week."
"Just because it wasn’t the same amount of effort doesn’t mean you didn’t work hard. Besides, you haven’t had one in a long time." (It’s been a year).
We battle over sizes - I want mini, he wants medium - settle on one, and then I complained about how he pressured me into it. How my legs are so disgustingly huge, stretch marks and flab and all.
"Your legs are beautiful," he said. "You’re beautiful. Besides, you’re going to love it once you get it, and one treat is not going to make you fat."
Is this what it is, to treat myself spontaneously? Chunks of strawberry and thick cream struggling up the straw, wet hands from the condensation and a receipt for $3.31.
But more importantly, is this what it is to have someone love me for who I am? My complaining, my fears existent since adolescence, my stubborn and unyielding negativity — none of it frustrates him, none of it deters him from reminding me that yes, I am worth it.
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I want you by my side
So that I never feel alone again
They’ve always been so kind
But now they’ve brought you away from me
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All I do when we’re apart is think about you, and all I do when we’re together is panic. Because every second feels important. And because I’m so out of control, I can’t help myself. I’m not even mine anymore, I’m yours, and what if you decide you don’t want me? How could you want me like I want you?
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— Rainbow Rowell, Eleanor & Park
Today we’re celebrating 50 years of the Wilderness Act signed by President Johnson to define and preserve wilderness areas throughout the United States.
#bornwild: BLM’s National Conservation Lands
Fifty years ago today, the Wilderness Act was signed, making the United States the first country in the world to define and designate wilderness areas through law. Today, the Bureau of Land Management manages wilderness as a part of its mission under the Federal Land Policy and Management Act, through our National Conservation Lands.
In 1983, Congress designated the BLM’s first wilderness: the Bear Trap Canyon Wilderness unit of the Lee Metcalf Wilderness in Montana. Since then, Congress has designated 221 BLM Wilderness areas encompassing 8.7 million acres, including the 1994 passage of the California Desert Protection Act which created 69 wilderness areas in California. Another 528 WSAs remain, totaling 12.7 million acres.
The BLM’s management of diverse wilderness includes offshore rocks, deserts, canyons and alpine tundra. And because the BLM manages the most public land of any Federal agency, wilderness designations can be massive. For example, the BLM’s largest wilderness is Nevada’s 315,000-acre Black Rock Desert Wilderness. Along the California coast, the King Range Wilderness has the longest coastal wilderness trail network in the country, more than 100 miles. These lands offer clean water; starry skies; pristine wildlife habitat; and open vistas that the public and BLM employees treasure.
Follow along all month as we celebrate the 50th anniversary of the Wilderness Act! And check out more beautiful wilderness photos in the #wilderness50 set on our My Public Lands Flickr: http://bit.ly/blmwilderness50
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